Desires of My Heart
Psa 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
Some people keep a to-do list on paper. I kept a desires list in my heart. More like a lusts list. Alcohol. Bars. Men. Candy. Attention. Validation. Affirmation. Acceptance. A husband. This dream, that dream. This want, that one. My desires changed over time, especially when I started to follow the Lord. But one thing remained constant. My desires were always about me and what I wanted out of my life. Years ago, when I stumbled on the verse about God giving us the desires of our heart if we delight in Him, I figured I could wave my magic wand and get Him to give me what I wanted. But when I truly learned to delight in Him, I realized I had a brand new desire.
The more time I have spent with God, and sought Him, and prayed, studied the Bible, heard from Him, praised and obeyed Him, the more in love with Him I have fallen and the more I have come to worship, revere, fear, and adore Him. I take no greater delight in the world than in Him and in learning to breathe every breath for Him. The more I have delighted in spending time with Him, the more I have rejoiced in what I have discovered to be the greatest desire of my life. Him. Every desire I had would have come to an end because everything in this life is temporal. But now I have no greater desire, nor any greater delight, than in the one whose love and presence is forever. He is the desire of my heart now. Is He yours?