Abused Woman Who Is Blind
“And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.” Matthew 7:3-5
I know an abused woman who is blind. Though blind, she can see; she cannot fully see herself, however. She sees the sin of the one who abuses her; she sees little, if any, of her own. I once was blind, but now I see (John 9:25). I see the woman’s blindness because I was blind like she is. I married a man I loved who was abusive toward me. I was not blind to his sin; his sin is all I saw. I had a blind spot; I could not see myself. I was too consumed with looking at him with judgement and condemnation to look in the mirror and see my heart, my mouth, and my actions. My sight worsened over time, and my heart hardened. People lovingly, firmly told me no matter what he was doing, I needed to love and forgive him and repent of my own sin and let God deal with him. I pridefully, stubbornly, self-pityingly refused. I was blinded by my sin – the hurt I would not let go, hatred, pride and fear.
After my then husband divorced me, God took a sledgehammer to my heart and by His Holy Spirit and through His Word gave me new vision. I began to learn about how love really works and what forgiveness really is and what following Christ really means. I learned to repent of my sin daily and to do my best to keep my heart pure for His love to flow in and through, ultimately pouring out into the world around me. I see now no matter what another does to me, I am accountable for my own self. And when I am diligent in loving and seeking and serving the Lord, and repenting when I need to, then the eyes of my heart see a world in need and the endless opportunities to help others hear and believe in the God who gives sight to those once blind.
If you have a blind spot in your life because you have been too busy pointing fingers at others to see your own sin, go before the Lord, study His Word, seek His face, repent, and learn to do this daily. You will discover the life He meant for you all along.