First, I stopped asking God to use me. Instead, I surrendered to the open heart surgery He wanted to perform on my life so that I would become a vessel He actually wanted to use – and could use. Second, I fell so much deeper in love with Him that I decided I wanted to be led by Him rather than to figure out by my flesh how exactly I wanted to serve God.
Go figure. The transformation in my heart created in me a desire to seek after the Lord – and His will. If the truth be known, I still don’t ask God to use me more than every once in a rare while. Why? He knows my heart. I want to love and serve Him, but this time around I want to be a vessel of honor to Him whereby He can truly use me for His good purpose. Secondly, I want Him to show me when He wants to use me, with whom, where, etc.
So instead of running the show like I tried unsuccessfully to do for so long, now I am excited and eager to see how His magnificent plans will unfold.
Don’t tell God to use you – unless you mean it. Or, better yet, surrender all to the Lord, follow Him, and let Him prepare you to be used and tell you when the time is right. He really will prepare us if we allow Him to, and He really will give us the directions we need to love and serve Him the way He desires.
Today God used me. He surprised me. It happened when I least expected it. But I was prepared in my heart; I was overflowing with His love and strong in the Word of God He has been teaching me. And, I was willing to follow when He so gloriously led.
2Ti 2:21 “If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master’s use, and prepared unto every good work.”