I Stood in the Shadow

I stood in the shadow and could not reach the light all round me. I shivered in the cool of standing away from the sunshine. I was down. Discouraged. Frustrated with why I kept falling into the same sin. Wondering why I could not break free – not even close. Then I saw the light. Literally. I saw the Light. I heard the Lord speak into my heart. Repent. I thought I had repented of all I had done wrong again; I had not. For I was believing Satan’s lies again, and my belief in his lies was the root of the sin I could not break free from. I had chased his lies into the shadow. The wrong shadow. For there is a shadow that creates no darkness at all. It is the shadow of the wings of the Lord – the shadow where God’s heart beckons us. The shadow of His light. The refuge of His presence. I repented for the lies I had believed again. And immediately I came free from the wrong shadow and was catapulted into God’s eternal light. His ever love. His amazing mercy. His beautiful heart. His awesome ways. Once more, I found myself not hunkered down on the ground wrapped in a shroud of my sin. I found myself walking – in the Light of the world. The Light of Christ.

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I have struggled with sin more recently than I can fathom. I have been impatient, tempestuous, raging at times, lashing out at the dogs, doing everything but loving them as I desire, falling so far short of God’s glory in caring for them at times that I considered quitting. “I can’t do this! I can’t do this!” I cried out to the Lord. “It’s too much for me.” And God reminded me how true this is. It is too much for me. Seventeen mostly special needs and senior rescued dogs with no help – coupled with my life as an evangelist and author and all the other aspects of Walk by Faith Ministry with which God has charged me. It is too much for me! Yes, as God reminded me, but not too much for me and Christ together. Not too much in His strength rather than my own. “But how can you possibly forgive me again?” I have cried out to the Lord. I so desperately don’t want to sin. I can’t stand that I would do anything other than love these dogs perfectly, not to mention love perfectly the Lord and all the people He places in my path. How can God forgive me again? Because He is God. And because He is teaching me to walk in His ways. He knows my heart.

In the midst of this all, God showed me impurities in my heart. He showed me I had some wrong motives in my desire to do right rather than wrong. So I repented and asked Him to forgive me. How forgiving is our God when we repent! How glorious is our God that He would stand there waiting in the marvelous light knowing that it takes only one step to come leaping and bounding into the magnificent Light. One step. The step of repentance. “I can’t believe you haven’t given up on me!” I tell the Lord. Oh, how He pours His love into me. He has not given up on me! In fact, in the midst of this all, He is testing my faith, teaching me, conforming me to the image of Christ, growing me in His image, preparing me, and training me to minister to others who are dying in the darkness when all along the Lord God almighty is inviting us to repent and come into the Light.

Are you standing in the wrong shadow? Are you in the shadow of Satan’s lies and sin from which you have not repented? Are you following the ways of the world instead of the ways of the Lord? Repent of your sin and place your trust in Jesus the Christ. He died for you; He died for me. Come into His Light! 

Joh 8:12  Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life. 

1Pe 2:9  But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light: 

Psa 91:1  He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. 

Psa 91:2  I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. 

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