Given my background of rejection, hurt, brokenness, loneliness, worry, anxiety, fear, woundedness, and feeling worthless, purposeless, and insignificant, etc., for decades I was on a desperate, relentless search for love, attention, acceptance, and validation from people especially men. Any satisfaction I found was temporary. I only felt worse over time. Now, by God’s grace, I have found in Jesus and a forever relationship with Him a never-ending more-than-imaginable supply of love and acceptance and all else I could possibly need.
But if I’m not careful, given we are sinners by nature and considering my background, I can fall back into being prideful, showing off, trying to prove myself, searching for attention, etc. Sin, sin, sin. All needing to be repented of. Not that I even intend to do so. In fact, in my love for the Lord, I desire desperately not to go back there! Old habit. Old sin.
Know what the Bible says about all this?
“…charity [love in some versions]vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,” 1 Corinthians 13:4 KJV
Also, “Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own,…” 1 Corinthians 13:5
Friend, pride, showing off, trying to get attention, self-seeking, all of it is sin against God and must be gotten rid of. Let us purge all of it from ourselves, humble ourselves before God, and act in a manner pleasing and glorifying to God. We are not to live to love and please and satisfy self. We are to love the Lord and others. Oh, may we do just that!
Oh, God, forgive us for ALL our sins. Including those you placed on my heart to write about in this message. Please, God, teach us to do what pleases you. Help us not go back to wrong. Help us walk down the “path of righteousness”. Thank you, oh Lord, amen!
“He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” Psalms 23:3 KJV