“Casting all your care [anxiety in some versions]upon him; for he careth for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
If anyone knows how to worry, I do. I can have fear about just about anything. I can worry incessantly if I’m not careful. I am so prone to fear I can’t imagine a day without it. If anyone were to be named the queen of fear, I could be. When I don’t place my trust in God and His Word moment by moment, and protect my heart from fear and worry (Proverbs 4:23), and seek to be filled with His Spirit and keep feasting on His Word, drawing ever closer to the Lord and living to honor and please Him, I can drown in worry. Isn’t it amazing, and miraculous, I have an incredibly rich, wonderful, brilliant, fulfilling, ever growing increasingly intimate relationship with God – despite the extreme worry I face daily?
When once I saw anxiety as part of me I simply could not get out from under nor be free from, as part of my makeup and who I was, as something I was in bondage to whose miserable virtually paralyzed slave I was, I have a new outlook. Fear is not part of me. It’s not who I am. It’s my enemy. Worry is a tactic of Satan he uses to try to steal, kill, and destroy in my life (John 10:10), to try to distract me from God, harm my relationship with God, keep me from fervently loving, worshiping, and serving God.
I am a slave to worry and fear no more. Yes, I face it daily. But I see it as a weapon used by my enemy. And I am in a war. I use my spiritual armor and weapons to fight (Ephesians 6, 2 Cor. 10:4), to have victory through Christ over it. Led by God’s Spirit, I use my faith in Christ and God’s Word against it. When I lose a battle because I have drifted from God and His Word, focusing on fear instead of on Him, I repent and turn back to God and His Word. I recognize Satan throws thoughts at me to try to get me to worry, and my feelings of worry and fear come when I don’t fight like I need to. So I learn to keep turning to God, turning to God, turning to God. And in turning to Him, turning to His Word! For victory!
I know I am no longer in bondage because I live my life fully, and passionately, for Christ, despite the worry and fear that comes at me. I do my best to obey God despite it. I don’t let it stop me. I strive daily to chase after the Lord and His will for my life, striving to live according to His ways, no matter what Satan throws at me. I used to live my life in bondage to fear in that I made decisions and took actions based on it or didn’t take actions because of it. Now I live for Christ instead, walking boldly forward in God’s strength as His Spirit leads me no matter how hard worry and fear come at me. Yes, now I live for Christ whose blessed bond-servant I am, learning breath by breath to be victorious in His most glorious name!