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I would have thought my life would have gotten better when I became a believer in Jesus Christ. My life got worse – much worse. Little did I know the difference between a believer and a follower. A believer believes. A follower of Christ commits to learn how to leave behind his or her old way of life, a worldly way of life, and to learn how to live according to God’s ways. I would have thought my life would have gotten better when I became a committed follower of Jesus Christ. My life got harder. For now I needed to learn how to cope with my challenges in a godly way – without all the dependencies I had developed through the years. Why wouldn’t God give me a break?
I yelled at God. I screamed at God. I cried to God. I waved my fists at God. I shouted at God. I begged God. I cursed at God. I did everything imaginable and unimaginable to let God know that He was wrong. I deserved a break. I had had enough. Why wouldn’t God give me a break? For decades, I had no semblance of a real life – not one with any true value.
Then God gave me a break, but it wasn’t the break I had so desperately wanted. And it wasn’t the break I felt I so desperately needed. The break He gave me wasn’t in my circumstances. The break He gave me was in my heart. For when I reached the point I simply felt I could not go on with another loss, another challenge, another trial, another anything at all, I gave up my life. And I gave it to Him.
Now I know why God wouldn’t give me the break I wanted. For so long as I continued to hang onto “my life” thinking “my life” was “for me”, and that I deserved this, or that I deserved that, I was missing the point of it all.
And the point is this. My life is His. Today I live my life for Him. I have lost most of what I ever wanted. And I have not received most of what I have dreamed for myself. But what I have lost in the people and the things of this world is nothing whatsoever when I think of what I have gained.
I have gained Christ. A life in Christ. A life of unfathomable love, peace, hope, fulfillment, and joy not in the circumstances or relationships with people of my life – but a joy and blessedness in knowing the Lord. In intimate fellowship with Him.
God wouldn’t give me a break because He had to strip me of almost everything I ever wanted to realize what I needed all along.
Him. I am His.
Are you?
I did not believe God knew what He was doing in my decades of trials. He knew all along. He always does. He is God.
Gal 2:20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
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Are you a Pisces by any chance? We NEVER have good lives!!! I definitely think God cursed US and not the other zodiac signs! What are your thoughts on this?
Well, my sister that is my sisters zodiac sign and they have been blessed abundantly.
How are believers here talking about zodiac signs?🚶♀️🚶♀️🚶♀️
Your blog is so what I think about. Thank you for sharing!
Hello,
God will never give me a break.
I gave myself to God through Jesus about 42 years ago. So far I have not had any break in the hardships of this so-called life. Constant trial(s). Always struggling. That is bad enough, but then God adds insult to injury by being completely uninvolved in this miserable life. Just silence, absence, unanswered prayers, and neglect from God.
For most of my life and especially the past 22 years God has turned his back to me. Whomever said that God doesn’t give us more than we can handle is a liar. It’s one after another each new day and no matter how hard i try it makes no difference. I’m at the end of my rope and I’m ready to give up because this isn’t watt life is suppose to be like. After so much time of having the life drained out of one’s self there’s no purpose in trying anymore when each new day is either the same as the one before or worse no matter watt you do. I’m tired and I don’t know why God can’t cut me a break or just let me find happiness only if it’s only for an hour each day. The way things have been for so long there is no reason to be hopeful or positive because a person gets so sick of being let down and to know each new day has another kick in the gut to give no matter watt. I can’t do this anymore because it’s a fighting a losing battle when it should of never been like this. It’s not right but it won’t ever change.
I’m sorry for your sadness. I feel hopeful even with no clear evidence for faith. I don’t understand either. But like Peter said To whom else can we go, This life is short and filled with troubles according to the Bible. Jesus suffered, so why shouldn’t we. Our life on earth is brief. Eternity with God is forever. God never said it would be a happy life free from trouble. My parents died, my brother died, I was molested as a child, have a neurological disease, my best friend just lost her 19 year old daughter to a devastating disease, yet she keeps walking in faith. She is my inspiration. Please don’t give up on God. It’s exactly what the devil wants you to do. Keep praying and seeking God. Listen to David Wilkersons messages. They will help you find your way back to God.
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