When Everything Falls Apart


“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” Phil. 1:6

I am the kind of person who when I take things apart cannot for the life of me figure out how to put them back together no matter how hard I try to pay attention to how they came apart. And no matter how many times I take the same thing apart and either get help putting it back together again or somehow manage to figure it out on my own after a great deal of stress, complaining, and ultimately, repentance mind you for my poor attitude, impatience, and temper, the same thing happens again. I’m stuck looking at the very same parts of the very same whatever it is with the very same dread and frustration unable to figure it all out. The day for the umpteenth time I found myself looking down at the parts of the clippers I use to shave down Glory the ministry’s dog without eyes and Mr. Shnookles the funny looking senior dog with bewilderment about why I was in the same predicament again, I realized the Holy Spirit had given me a message about what happens when our lives seem broken in a zillion pieces and we stand over them at our wit’s end trying to figure out how to put them back together.

I was one of the most lost, broken, messed up, downtrodden, women I have ever known; I was in a zillion pieces and for the life of me no matter what I tried to do and no matter what help I received from people, I remained in useless, purposeless pieces. When I came to believe in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I remained in all the pieces – for YEARS! Why? I didn’t develop a relationship with God through Christ, I didn’t study the Bible, and I didn’t plant myself in the Body of Christ. When I finally began to study the Bible and got into Christ’s Body, I remained in a zillion pieces! Things didn’t get better; they got worse. When I finally began to develop a personal relationship with God, continued to study the Bible AND LEARNED HOW TO APPLY IT TO MY LIFE and thereby began to grow in God’s image, I realized over time my life was no longer in a zillion pieces. But something shocking happened! Just like when I finally give up trying to put something back together I have taken apart and place it in the hands of an expert, I realized I needed to stop trying to put my life back together the way it had been or the way I thought it should be. I needed to place my heart and life in the loving, merciful, expert hands of the Lord and let Him by His Spirit through His Word form me into the woman of God He created me to be. It’s an ongoing process now, and it’s amazing to watch what only God can do. To the Lord be all glory!

   Have you placed your heart and life in the hands of the Lord?

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