My life is not my own. I am bought with a price (see scriptures at bottom of article). The Lord Jesus Christ lives inside me. (Scriptures below.) I am a temple of the Holy Spirit (Scriptures below). I am not on this earth to live my dreams. I am on this earth to live His dreams for me that His name might be glorified. This is not only true for me. It is true for everyone else also, though others like myself may be slow learners when it comes to this truth.
And I can just imagine what someone reading this article might be thinking when it comes to my Christian fiction writing dream. “What’s wrong with a dream like that? Surely it comes from God. Why in heaven’s name shouldn’t Lara Love write Christian fiction in addition to non-fiction? How could this possibly not be a dream God has placed in her heart?” Or, perhaps someone reading this is thinking of his or her own dreams, God-given or not. “Surely something I want this badly must come from God. It’s a good dream, after all. Surely God placed this idea in my heart. I just want to do this so very much!”
The truth of the matter is that some dreams come from God, and some do not. And God’s dreams also have a time frame. As much as I desperately want to write Christian fiction, I don’t as of yet feel gifted – or even capable – of writing it as well as I would like. So if I cannot even get properly started, then how could this possibly truly be a dream of God’s? Well, if it is God’s dream, it also has a time frame. If it is His will, He may want me to begin pursuing this dream weeks, months, or even years into the future. Or, this dream could simply be my own. Perhaps I am just meant to read Christian fiction – and not write it.
But at the root of all of this is one major truth. It is either God’s dream or it is not. It is either His will or it is not. If He truly plans to call me into Christian fiction writing in addition to – or instead – of what He has already called me into, He will make it abundantly clear. God is not a God of confusion. He knows how to speak His mind. But in the meantime, I have a job to do when it comes to my wants.
I need to give God my wants. I need to surrender my I-want-to’s to Him. I need to release to Him my plans, my ideas, my agenda, my desires, my dreams, my thoughts, my everything. Why? Because my life is His. And when I surrender my life to Him, then He not only gets to live fully in and through me. But then I end up more blessed than I could possibly have imagined because I will not be living my life in the limitations of the flesh. I will be living my life in the strength of the Lord and with the priceless rewards of knowing that the life I live will glorify His name.
Giving God my want-to’s is not always easy. It is one thing to utter the words in prayer or aloud, or even to write them, but it is another thing to live this life of sacrifice and surrender. But then, what a small price to pay for a phenomenally, indescribably wonderful life – His life lived in and through me. Do you know something? Jesus Christ gave up His life for us. How little He asks of us to lay down our small, insignificant lives that He might live His glorious life through us.
Surely I am not alone in getting caught up in my want-to’s. I hope I am also not alone in making the decision to place them in His hands. If I truly want to live my life for Christ, this must include that which I desire. In the grand scheme of things, this is such a very little sacrifice. At the end of the day, what I receive in return is priceless beyond measure.
Dear Lord God, I love you. But I know that the words are not enough. You want my obedience. I feel so clean and free when I know I am in your will. Lord God, I have such strong desires. And you tell me that if I delight in you, you will give me my desires. But do you know something? Lord, I believe if I delight in you, your desires will become your desires. I will come to want what you want for me. I love you, Lord, and I trust you with my life. It has taken me a very long time to come to this place, and sometimes I move away from this place. But right now, in this very moment, this is where I am. I want to surrender all of me to all of you. Here I am, Lord. I give you all of me, including my wants. May your beautiful, holy, wonderful will be done. In Jesus name, Amen.
Psa 37:4 “Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
Psa 37:5 Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.”
1Co 6:19 “What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
1Co 6:20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.”
Gal 2:20 “I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”