Joh 10:2 But he that entereth in by the door is the shepherd of the sheep.
Joh 10:3 To him the porter openeth; and the sheep hear his voice: and he calleth his own sheep by name, and leadeth them out.
Joh 10:4 And when he putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth before them, and the sheep follow him: for they know his voice. (John 10:2-4
“You’re in fear,” the Lord told me.
“I know. I am. You want me to trust you even though I can’t see anything you’re doing.”
“That’s what trust is. Trust is not about what you see. Trust is placing your faith in me.”
“I do have faith in you, Lord,” I replied.
“That makes sense, God, and it sounds good. But you expect me to do this.”
“I have asked you to walk by faith. Is this not what I have asked you to do?”
“Yes, God, but I feel like I’m walking in the dark. Only shouldn’t it be light? Shouldn’t I be able to see where I’m walking, to know what’s going on with the situations I am concerned about?”
“I am the Light, sweet one. It is not necessary that you see everything. It is necessary that you see me. When you place your trust in me, you will be free.”
“I am afraid to let go. I hurt so much deep inside. I am afraid.”
“I know, but holding onto the reins will not bring about the results you desire. In fact, you may never see those results. You may not get what you want. I know what’s best. You need to trust me to hold the reins. These situations are tough, I know. But the longer you hold on, the longer you hold yourself back from the freedom I desire for you to have. Your freedom is not in the outcome of these situations. Your freedom is in me. Are you willing to let go?”
“I am, God, but I need to be honest. When I let go, I feel like I’m going to throw my arms around you and hold on for dear life. Because it’s going to be a pretty scary ride.”
“I want you to throw your arms around me. I want you to hold onto me for dear life. I am God. I am your Lord. I want you to hold onto me. It is holding onto the world that is causing you so much hardship. You are hurting because you will not let go. I am not going to promise you the outcome you want. But I am going to promise you myself. You can have me forever. And I am more than all of this. I am all. I am everything. I am the Alpha and the Omega. I am the beginning and the end. I am the author and the finisher of your faith. I created you. I have plans for you. I simply need you to come with me. Are you ready?”
“I am. I can’t say I’m excited. But I know what I’m doing isn’t working. So right now, Lord, I release my hold on the world and return to you. Forgive me for holding on for dear life to the temporary, to that which will one day perish. You gave up your Son Jesus for my freedom. You have forgiven me through my faith in Him. You want me to live the life you have called me to live. And I can’t do that holding onto my old ways. I am ready, Lord. Please take me forward. Let’s go.”
“Begin, sweet one, by knowing you have made the right decision. You have chosen me. Everything from here on out will be different. My way is different from the world’s way. But you will not be alone. Not ever. And even in your brokenness, you will know that I know what’s best. I am here for you always. Let’s go.”