When I first started following Christ, I heard often of miracle healings. I mostly heard of physical healings. I rarely heard of emotional healing – of healing from trauma, tragedy, and the like. Nevertheless, I almost always heard of healing as something instantaneous. So I, of course, expected nothing less for myself.
But now, as I undergo perhaps the most vital, life-changing healing I have ever undergone, I am infinitely grateful – albeit, sometimes frustrated and impatient – that God is healing me His way. I mentioned this to a friend recently, and she had a fascinating response. I shared with her how through the years I have heard of people who were instantly delivered from cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, etc.
“But that’s the outside,” she told me.
Wow. I hadn’t thought of that.
She continued by reminding me that the inside stuff cannot be left out. Truly, God doesn’t only want us to give up our addictions. He wants to heal our hearts! He wants to renew our minds. He wants to transform our lives. What good is a broken woman freed from alcohol if her heart is full of bitterness and hatred? What good is a mean, vengeful man without alcohol? How can we love and serve the Lord, and love our neighbors as ourselves, if our hearts and thoughts are nothing more than meaningless messes?
When I prayed recently for healing, it never crossed my mind that my healing would be a process – not to mention a grueling one. Nevertheless, I now realize I am blessed beyond measure.
As my beloved Pastor Freddie taught me years ago, God doesn’t want to take stuff out of my life by the fruits. He wants to take it out by the roots. And so He is.
Day after day, He is leading me to repentance, showing me through journal writing what needs to be changed, revealing to me the origin of issues in my life, and taking me to places so deep that I am blown completely away.
Little did I know how deeply entrenched the roots were that needed to be given God’s ax. But now I know. One day after another, I see how blessed I am to undergo the slow variety of healing. How do I see it now? The Lord loves me so much that He doesn’t want to leave me in my mess. And He loves me so much that He doesn’t want to give me a half-hearted healing. He wants to heal me His way. The right way. In the right time. For the right purpose – not only for my freedom, but most importantly for His glory.
Luk 3:8 “Bring forth therefore fruits worthy of repentance, and begin not to say within yourselves, We have Abraham to our father: for I say unto you, That God is able of these stones to raise up children unto Abraham.
Luk 3:9 And now also the axe is laid unto the root of the trees: every tree therefore which bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.” KJV