When the spiritual battle Christ’s followers face is at its most fiery, which it has been for me over the past week since the Lord led me from three weeks of ministry and preparation in the Appalachian region of West Virginia to New Jersey just outside New York City where He is leading me back for more ministry work there, sometimes we find ourselves believing we’re simply not going to make it through the challenges at worst or believing we’re going to make it through but will be too broken and worthless and messed up to be of any use to the Lord and to anyone else at best.
Rest assured in the past few weeks I’ve had my periods of feeling like I simply wasn’t going to make it through and faced suicidal thoughts as Satan came at me full force which thank God from years of experience I know how through Christ to overcome. I’ve also had my periods of feeling like oh, sure, I may make it through this heinous spiritual battle – but there’s no way I’ll be able to go forth in my ministry work let alone be of any use to the Lord and to anyone else given how horribly I’ve thought of myself thanks to listening to Satan’s lies which he has attacked me with almost relentlessly day after day recently.
But thanks be to the Lord God almighty, to the Bible, to an enormously strong relationship with Him, and to numerous sisters in Christ who have prayed their hearts out for me and walked closely alongside me, I am putting one foot in front of the other – albeit slowly – and choosing by faith in Christ and in His love and strength to keep going forward – in life, yes, and in ministry, yes. For the glory of God.
Thank you for your love, prayers, and encouragement as the Lord grows me, as He teaches and tests and trains me, as Satan attacks me, and as I stand in the strength of God and press on in my personal relationship with Christ and in the Lord’s work.
In God’s most amazing awesome love,