Too Broken to Matter


“Now when Jesus had come into Peter’s house, He saw his wife’s mother lying sick with a fever. So He touched her hand, and the fever left her. And she arose and served them.” Mt. 8:14-15………

“and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.” 2 Cor. 5:15………….

For decades, I felt too broken to matter. I had no sense of self-worth, and perhaps you think this was the worst of my troubles. It wasn’t. My troubles seemed endless. Some of my own making. Some of others’ making. I didn’t need a sense of self-worth. This world is all about self and worth and the satisfaction of self, isn’t it? I needed to repent of my sins, believe Jesus Christ is Lord and died on the cross to pay my sin penalty and was raised from the dead, and fully devote my life to God and His ways. I needed to turn away from self and turn to Christ. I needed to learn to deny self, or die to self, to take up my cross, and follow Jesus in the ways of the Lord. I didn’t need to find my worth in self. I needed to find my identity and value in Christ, not in me nor in this world. I needed to stop living for me. I needed to live for Christ. According to God’s ways. My biggest trouble wasn’t a lack of self-worth. My biggest trouble was I was consumed with self instead of believing in and living for and being consumed with Christ. I felt too broken to matter alright. But the answer wasn’t self-worth. The answer was, and is, for me, and for you, and for all of us, Christ.

God took me from total brokenness to wholeness. I am whole in Christ now. My worth, value, significance, meaning, identify, and purpose are all in the Lord Jesus Christ. I no longer live for me; I live for Him. My value today is that I’m God’s adopted daughter and Christ’s blessed servant through repentance and faith in and a life devoted entirely to Christ.

One of my favorite stories is of the apostle Peter’s mother in law. When she was healed, she immediately started serving. She didn’t run off now that she was healed to serve self. She jumped right in to serving others. The Lord doesn’t save us from our sins and our sin penalty of death, hell, and the lake of fire when He forgives us and brings us into His forever fellowship so we can continue on living a lifestyle of sin according to the pleasures and treasures of the wickedness of this world. He doesn’t save us so we can rush off to go live for self. So we can find our worth in self. He rescues and redeems and heals us so we can be forever His. So we can love and serve Him forever. So we can love and serve others in His name. And the wholeness He gives us, the value and worth and significance and identify we find when we commit our lives utterly to Christ, is found in Him and in living for Him rather than in us and in living for ourselves.

Are you living for yourself, friend, or are you living to love and worship and serve God forever through Christ? Are you living to love and serve others in His name? May your value and worth and significance and identity and purpose be in Jesus. May you live for Him! May you live to love and serve Him forever – and to love and serve others in His holy most precious blessed forever name. Not seeking your worth in self, but finding your significance in and for Him alone. Amen!

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