“Forgive me for not being thankful,” I prayed. “Forgive me for not being content.” I had tears in my eyes as I prayed in repentance.
The Lord blessed me with His provision and protection for a season of my life, but I had gone from being thankful to feeling restless, discontent, and unthankful. I wanted to move on. I wanted change. I wanted to get out of where I was and get to wherever I would go next. I kept looking forward as though there were something better, easier, more comfortable. I wanted out. Out of where I was physically, out of where I was emotionally. But there I was in a place of His blessedness. The blessedness of being in His fellowship first and foremost, and the blessedness of what He was bestowing upon me in the way of physical blessings. And, sadly, blessedness I just couldn’t properly see.
Can you relate to any of this? Do you find yourself restless sometimes? Wanting out of where you are in the way of a house, relationship, job, church, a situation, where you currently are in one fashion or another, somewhere, or in something, where the Lord wants you but you want out of? Do you find yourself upset? Complaining? Discontent? Unthankful?
Friend, the Lord will move us forward if and when He wants to do so. He will lead us on if it is His will and in His time for His purpose and glory. But let us not forget where we currently are. Let us not neglect to choose thanksgiving and contentment right where we are. Being thankful and content first and foremost for being in His forever fellowship assuming we have repented and committed our lives to the Lord and His ways. Then, let us be thankful for any and all other blessings He generously and mercifully gives us right in this very day and each and every day.
The apostle Paul faced challenges beyond description. Still, he learned to be content. And, throughout the Bible, there are those who believed in God and chose the way of being thankful. Of not moaning and groaning and pridefully and foolishly resisting and rebelling against God’s will for them but instead being thankful.
We may not be where our flesh wants to in life, but when we’re in the will of the Lord, we can and should choose to find thanksgiving and contentment as we practice abiding in Him, in His love, in His rest, in His joy, in His hope, in His peace, in His promises, in His strength, in His comfort, in His wisdom, in His counsel, under His reign, in His fellowship, oh hallelujah, oh yes!
I needed to repent for my attitude. For my lack of contentment and thanksgiving. I am ever needing to learn to abide in Jesus. Do you?
“Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Philippians 4:11-13