When Your Heart Breaks
“In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah. (Psalm 62:7-8).”
As I reel from the umpteenth tragedy in my life, this time the just days old news that the woman who was one of my dearest ever friends and sister to me was found dead of what I am told was a self-inflicted gunshot wound though the final verdict is not yet in, I am reminded of what I have learned to do through my countless lifelong trials and tribulations with a broken heart. After decades of taking my over and again broken heart to the world to fix it for me, only to find myself constantly let down, bitter, and disappointed that the world did not meet my need and expectation to have my heart healed and made whole, a woman who was discipling me handed me a Bible verse one day that changed the very future of my heart and life.
“The Bible says to “pour out your heart,” to the Lord,” she told me. She knew full well how desperately in that season of my life I needed to do just that, but little did I know how much I would need to hang onto the Lord – and that verse – for years to come. But what exactly was she trying to tell me, and what does that verse mean?
In my own experience, I take EVERYTHING now to the Lord. I pray to Him. I talk to Him. I cry out to Him. My mourning, anger, hurt, fears, worries, concerns, issues, sadness, joy, praises, thanksgiving, trials, insecurities, sins, thoughts, and every other feeling and experience imaginable, I bring it all to Him as a little girl to her loving Father. Though at times I take some of this to people who can love and pray for me and offer me an encouraging word or hug or godly counsel, I make sure when it comes to my heart that I pour out ALL of my heart to Him. I hold nothing back. I grew up in a family in which I was taught that emotions like sadness and anger belong behind closed doors in private, and it took time for me to trust the Lord really wanted me to give Him my whole heart. I have that trust now, and the results are amazing. For the Lord is not only my Father and Savior, my God and redeemer, my King and my friend, my hope and my eternity, but He is also the healer of hearts. And He is the healer of mine.
Is He yours?