Just when I feel I am finally making some headway with the book I am writing, I have a sneaking suspicion I may need to start all over. In fact, I am not quite sure I am supposed to be writing this book at all. Furthermore, if I am meant to be writing it, I may need to begin from the beginning. Or, I may need to try an altogether different style. How can this be? How, after the countless hours, days, and weeks I have poured into this project could I possibly let go and begin again? Better yet, how could I stop writing this book, let it go completely, and start a totally different book project? I have prayed my heart out over this, I have pressed into God beyond measure, I am so intensely waiting on Him that I am hard pressed to take my keys off the keyboard in preparation for the words the Lord will give me. Yet I know I will take no joy in continuing with the book unless I know it is the Lord’s will. You might wonder, how could God possibly allow me to get this far and then ask me to start all over?
God does not ask me to understand when He asks me to obey; He asks me to trust. I realize God may have taught me a lesson in getting so far in a book project without continuing with it, or He may continue to transform my heart and life in asking me to continue with it. In the grand scheme of things, it really doesn’t matter why. What matters is that I need to trust the Lord entirely, and to believe He has a purpose in all this. Am I willing to start all over? Absolutely. Am I excited about it? If it is His will, and I know it is, certainly. In the meantime, I will need to practice some patience as I wait for total clarity on how to proceed.
God does not ask me to understand when He asks me to obey; He asks me to trust. I realize God may have taught me a lesson in getting so far in a book project without continuing with it, or He may continue to transform my heart and life in asking me to continue with it. In the grand scheme of things, it really doesn’t matter why. What matters is that I need to trust the Lord entirely, and to believe He has a purpose in all this. Am I willing to start all over? Absolutely. Am I excited about it? If it is His will, and I know it is, certainly. In the meantime, I will need to practice some patience as I wait for total clarity on how to proceed.
Is there anything God has asked you to start all over? Are you willing to do so? Are you willing to do so even if you don’t understand why? God honors obedience. Trust Him with your whole heart, and carry on. Follow Him. He knows the way. After all, He is the Way!
Pro 3:5-6 KJV. “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”
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