God does not want us to clean up to go to Him. He wants us to go to Him to get cleaned up. I do not just speak merely from experience. Nor do I speak only from wishful thinking. I speak from the Word of the Lord Himself. The Bible says: “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9 KJV).” I have been more aware of my sin this past year than ever in my life, yet I have also been more aware of the Lord’s mercy and forgiveness than ever before.
Have you ever shined a light into a dimly lit room only to find that everything that had appeared clean before is anything but? The more I have followed after the Lord Jesus Christ, the more I have pressed into our Father in heaven, the more the light Has shone inside me. The more His light has shone, the more my sins have been brought into His wonderful light. But how wonderful is it to have the dirt and the dust, the mud, scrapes, cuts, bruises, and all the rest of the mess become utterly transparent?
Honestly? As hard as it is, as excruciatingly painful as it is sometimes even, the end result really is wonderful. Why? God does not bring darkness into the light to point a punishing finger and condemn. The Lord reveals any darkness inside me so that I can confess and repent – and He can clean me up.
The Holy Spirit of God lives inside me, and my desire is for the temple in which He resides to be a place where he loves to dwell. I do not need to be ashamed of where I fall short. I only need to coming running to His mercy seat once more, ask forgiveness for the dirt I have allowed to build up inside me, and praise Him that once more He proves His mercy truly endures forever and ever more.