Stop Trying to Convince Yourself
I called a beloved friend I missed dearly. She had been out of touch for some time. Hard for a sensitive heart like mine given how very much I love her. Nobody on the other end of the phone. Just a voice mail. I left a brief and heartfelt message. Then hung up the phone. Immediately the Holy Spirit brought conviction.
My message to her had been fleshly. All about self. Not about the Lord and His will. Not about my friend and her needs and struggles. Worst of all, He made clear I had convinced myself I should have called her in the first place when in fact it had not been His will. In my emotions, in my selfishness, I acted according to my own will for the sake of self instead of denying self and loving and obeying the Lord instead.
If we find ourselves trying to convince ourselves to do something we sense is not His will, we need to stop trying to convince ourselves it is His will and humbly love and obey Him instead.
Lord God, thank you for this hard message. Hard for me and perhaps for others. Please forgive me for what I did wrong regarding the phone and for all the other times I have done this. Please help me and all of us for that matter to seek you, pray to you, wait on you, and obey you. Please help us to not act in the flesh but by the leading of your Holy Spirit. Please bring conviction and lead us to repentance when we fall short. Please have mercy upon us all. Thank you, oh Lord, thank you, AMEN!
“I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish…” Galatians 5:16-17